This is my life right now. Is that yours?

Sometimes you can never be sure of what you want in life. What your goal is. Who you want to talk to. Who you want to listen to. Who you want to be inspired by. Why you're actually doing the things you're doing.

Sometimes you believe so strongly in what you're doing, you feel you have a reason. Than the next thing you know, you've just thrown yourself off track; because of selfishness, because of influence, because of the pressure, because of inferiority, because you look around you and you just want to give up cos the world is evil. You are afraid of the letdown, you had too many in your life, you cant take on another. Not yet. Not Now.

Deep down, you know somehow you might make it, but at the same time you just cant believe in yourself when you see everyone else trying as hard. Or harder. That just pulls you down. You get lost. And than you sit on your bed when you're alone, and you think. You find something to believe in again and your spirits are high. But once more, along the way, something happens. Now the vicious cycle goes on. And you kill yourself slowly. Until you get the result. And its time to climb the next mountain. Or maybe you dont cos you died trying to climb the previous one.